Say What!?!

I often play the back and forth game of would I be happier as a stay at home mom. I know that if I stayed at home I would need to create some sort of supplementary income for my family. I know that me just staying home is not an option. Today was a day that I really struggled. After being off for a week, I returned to work all day. I got home and I was exhausted and felt like I had not seen my kids all day, but felt to tired to play with them. The the guilt set in. I am sending my daughter with my mother again for a week to Independence because I don't like the idea of leaving her with a stranger. So today was a day I wished I could be a stay at home mom. I will miss her while she is gone.